...to soothe an aching soul.
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by PAM
"Take my hand and gently close your eyes so you could understand
that there's no greater love tonight than what I've for you.
So, if you feel the same way then let go...
...life is short, my darlin', tell me that you love me...
...I'll be by your side, forever by your side."
Those days when things get 'too much', and I just need a 'safe and quiet place' to 'rest'... a place where I can try to find meaning in all the chaos around... those are difficult days. And, well, today is one of those days. So, here I am, in my 'safe place'... may God keep me company.
It has been an extremely difficult 45 days. I felt like getting caught up in a whirlwind... and feeling really helpless and out of breath. I was just moving back and forth from sadness to happiness in an eye-blinding speed. The emotions swing from extremes, so far apart and contrasting... but mostly sadness. Yesterday, sadness just tipped the scale in ferocious 'violence'... and I got thrown off track. It was like hitting a hard wall while moving on great momentum, and flying off the ground like a weightless feather, helpless, desperately trying to find something to cling to, and finding nothing... nothing at all! It was 'painful'... it felt like my heart was getting ripped out of my chest, getting smashed against a solid curtain of high-pressure air, and shattering to small pieces - so extremely painful! No amount of tears can bring and hold the pieces together. Now, my head aches so badly... and my heart 'bleeds'... gushing 'blood' of extreme, convulsive sadness... and it hurts so badly. I cling to hope, holding on desperately... but I am slowly being overcome by sadness, I feel like letting go.
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Video credit: Thanks, YouTube, for the video link.
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