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by PAM
Uhm... do you watch HGTV's 'Cousins Undercover'? Yes? So, then you know that when you start shedding tears when the emotional house owners finally see their transformed house in spite of John Colaneri's hysterically giddy mood, you might just be too stressed out, and are just looking for an opportunity to let your frustration out without appearing like your're complaining, or that you're being a wuss! :) And then you cry your eyes out until you admit to yourself that you're being silly. So then you focus on the Italian good looks of Anthony Carrino (oy!), and you know, it'll be alright? Right? Right! :) See, this is the most wonderful thing about being single... you can crush on all the Anthonys and the Harveys (Specter, of 'Suits', who else?) in the world, and nobody's gonna be rolling their eyes on you. Hmm... did I speak too soon? ;)
Going back to the correlation between stress and TV tearjerkers, I think that, with the depth and breadth of my stress right now, this is what I need...
@23:34 min - 25:04 min
Fr. Walker : Why are you here (in the church)?
Fr. Walker : Why are you here (in the church)?
Mike Ross: Because I'm afraid!
...to let some steam off. Why? Well, this 'Suits' episode is all about mistakes on top of mistakes, buried under the rush of realities that the characters needed to deal with every single day. The consequence of their mistakes came biting the behind of every single one of them when something finally gave. And it happened in this episode. I can relate to the characters because I'm afraid I may have made a BIG mistake - I mean, huge - in choosing a person to help lead a very important initiative, one that's critical to our Organization's sustained growth... and I'm paying the price right now. Per previous experiences with other people, I thought that I could help that person to want to "reform" by showing my confidence in that person to lead something important despite the person's awful leadership track record. Idealism? Misguided optimism? Or, foolishness, perhaps, on my part? Whatever it was, it was a misstep, because as it turned out, one wise person who warned me about "old dogs not being able to learn new tricks" was right. What can I say, I chose to see the "goodness" in the "dog"? Dear me! Now, I realized, the "dog" isn't actually "old"... it's just deranged - by choice! It's too selfish to lead. And, I've put it off the leash! What a disaster waiting to happen!
I admit, it was a gamble... which I feel I'm losing right now. That is, if I wouldn't be able to muster the courage to set aside 'mushiness' and cage the 'deranged animal' as soon as possible. Needless to say, I am utterly disappointed with myself... not so much because I committed a misstep, but because I stubbornly believed that the goodness in every person, no matter how little, always prevails when common good is at stake. In this instance, I am convinced that this idealistic belief is not always true... apparently, for some people, selfishness prevails. And, since I made the decision, no matter what, I am responsible for that misstep. The good news is, it's not too late. There is time to correct the mistake before this ugly head of consequences grew to a dispicable monstrosity. So, yeah, pass me that box of tissue will ya, this 'Suits' episode is such a massive tearjerker, it's makin' me weep! And, yeah, the screenplay, editing, acting and direction are brilliant, too. Too good, they make me weep! Some people have all the talents. *weep*
See, idealism can't only lead to obesity... it can also bite your behind like a 'mad dog'! Oy, I need a puppy.
But, more than a 'puppy', I need to act - fast!
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Video credit: Thanks, YouTube, for the video link.
Video credit: Thanks, YouTube, for the video link.
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